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Thursday, July 02, 2009

+sunk like a boat+

leaky like a faulty pipe in me ol kitchen...

everyone has their own way of grieving..and for me.. im kinda slow

i dont cry when anyone else cries..coz i think i secretly just want to do the opposite of everyone else..

i saw pple shed buckets more tears than i did and the only thing tt was gg thru my ig head was.. "err..u didnt have to live with him.." "why are u crying more than me?"

before this i shed only a tear or two..esp when the mood called for it..for example orng baje doa..

i was still joking ard jenow morning biler dier dimandikan... i think i also purposely avoided anything that had anything to do with his death....had to do tt daun pandan thing..with the flowers..i didnt knoe why.. i just did..

then when it was done..he was a large corpse..wrapped in a bundle..a sad sight..still i didnt cry...

his blue face..his eyes closed..sleeping..like how we all tought u were..the day before.. ur perut was a lil smaller i think coz the whole thing like slim wrap..isist? and i could still remember listening for frogs...

when it came to dealing with the flowers thing...if can i didnt want to do that either...but i thank god i did...

up till now everything still seems too unreal..

another drama i created in my head for a potential screenplay..a movie maybe..or a theathre production?? mayb?

"he is gone..u saw him..u touched his cold, lifeless body..u saw his swollen purple face..he is gone..."

"no..he's not..just gone to abu dhabi.." and i would stop crying coz it made me laugh a lil..

but then i'll start crying again...

2 thoughts..one after another..continuously..same aje...cry .stop.cry.stop..

"woixx! memain per??!"

ahahahaha..

bejewelled while trying to sing away the tears and sadness..

multi tasking to the ultimate level wann..

and now as i try to fall asleep..i cant coz the tears cant stop flowing..

"oh now.. u cant stop.."

i stared at my ceiling and thought of the many 'no more...'s...

no more...

breakfast lontong at changi

breakfast at jalan kayu

bedok kachang pool with salt..

ice cream roti

tomyum buddy..

mcdonalds..

everything that has got to do with food...

has it still not sunk it yet that yayi is gone? i dunno..

ive never gone thru such things before

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